For the past month I’ve been on a roller coaster ride with my ex girlfriend. I met her in November of 2008 and she was the best thing that ever happened to me. We fell in love with each other. I was more than your average boyfriend. I cooked, helped her financially if she needed, bought her dinner, opened doors, bought her flowers on occasion, and did all of the little things that mattered. We had our bumps in the road, but we got over it before we knew it we were giving each other a hug and a kiss. She ended meeting a new guy and she cheated on me and left me for him. I was devastated for months.
A few months ago I decided to take her out of my life completely and deleted her as a friend on facebook. About a month ago I received a message from her wondering why I deleted her. I didn’t bother to respond. She sent me another message and told me she still wanted to be friends and that she was sorry for what she did to me. Turns out the low life she left me for cheated and left her. She told me that she still cared about me and wanted to hang out or have lunch. So I gave into her.
Last week I received hockey tickets and I figured she would like to go. I sent her a text and asked her what her plans were for the night it was scheduled. No Response. The day of the game I called and sent her text messages asking if she wanted to go. She gave in and said she wanted to. We went to the game and had a good time. We went to a local bar for some drinks and had a really good time and laughed with each other.
We went back to her house that night, and that’s when I started to become emotional. Of course, because I was drunk. She told me why she left me for him. She left me because he lied about who he was. She told me we just weren’t right for each other. He left her behind with an apartment she can’t afford. She can’t even afford groceries. I felt really bad. She told me that she still had sex with random guys, and was also at one time having sex with a married man. She thought it was okay because they were swingers. That hurt me really bad. I told her that she was better than that. I told her that I still loved her and kissed her. She started to cry and we both told each other we would be a part of each others lives even if we couldn’t be together. I left that night drenched in tears. The next day she sent me a text and made sure I made it home okay and I told her I was fine. I offered her lunch and she said she had plans. I told her I would talk to her later. I realized that I was falling in love all over again. I decided to stop by my local card store and bought her a valentines day card. I wrote a heart felt note on the card along with a $300 check to help her financially. She received it the day before Valentines Day and thanked me. She said it meant a lot and made sure that I was willing to do that. I told her not to worry about it and asked her what she was doing that night. She told me she had to go to work. The next day on Valentines Day I sent her a text and wished her a happy Valentines Day and told her that I hoped she was feeling better. She never responded. I figured she was sleeping because she worked late night. Someone from work that day gave me a big cheesecake that I didn’t really want. I thought about her and that she would like it. I sent her a text and asked if she was awake and didn’t get a response. I just went home that night without stopping by her place. She sent me at 1am and told me she was at work. Didn’t bother to say, "Happy Valentines Day" or "Thank You". The next day in the afternoon I sent her a text and told her I was going to drop by and give her a cheesecake the night before. I never got a response out of it. I didn’t bother to contact her the next day. I was beginning to think she was taking advantage of me, and I was thinking about cancelling the check I gave her. The following day I had a change in heart and sent her a text and asked what she was up to. She told me she was up at her bank cashing my check and trying to get her account straightened out. I told her that I hoped that my check would help and offered to go to lunch when she was finished. I still haven’t gotten a response. I have not heard from her in over four days.
Why is she doing this to me? Is she playing mind games, or taking the hard to get game to the next level? It’s been 10 months since our breakup and in those 10 months she asked for friendship many times, and I denied. I finally accept.. and now this?? Ladies.. I need your help
You know what you are to her: an emotional crutch. She left you because things got exciting with other men and when karma screwed with her, she came running back to the one person she knew would be there for her. You did exactly what she thought you would do. You were there for her. I don’t even need to be telling you that she took and is currently taking advantage of you.
I get you were very much in love with this girl, but no way in hell did she deserve you back. Sometimes we let our emotions control our actions, but think about this logically because it obviously is only hurting you. As bad as you feel for her, she’s the one who put herself in this situation. If you are the great guy you’re making yourself out to be, she doesn’t even deserve your friendship.
It makes me upset to hear about guys getting treated like this because guys like you are RARE and deserve someone who is willing to put in 100% just like you. What LOVE means to me is making it work. Love is trying when you feel like giving up. Love is not leaving someone who is fully devoted to you for a "fling". She is lucky that you even responded to her the second time around after she broke your heart. It will be as hard as hell, but flush this girl out of your system. This is cliche, and I won’t speak for other girls, but I’d die to have some guy crazy in love with me , who is fully devoted, and yes we love those small gestures ( or at least I do).
For a balanced equation, input=output. You put in a a lot of input, and got very little output in return. It may seem impossible right now, and trust me I know the feeling, but you will forget about her and you will fall in love again. I promise this to you. If not, come back years from now and somehow tell me that I was wrong. I’m in that same quest right now, join me.